Tuesday, May 27, 2008

To My Brother

Have you ever lost a loved one? If you could talk to them again what would you say? Well I lost my brother a couple of years ago and it seems like yesterday because I miss him so much!

An open letter to my brother may he rest in peace.......

Dear D'Andre,

Where do I start? I miss you so much that it hurts sometimes, I cant believe I'm here to get old alone! We had so many plans for our lives but now I have to find my way solo I will never question why God chose to take you away so soon instead I thank him for the 22 years of your life that you were here. I remember never having a bad day because you always had a solution to fix any problem or a kind word to make me smile. I know you weren't an angel to everyone but you were definitely one for me! I loved your creative mind, your passion for life, your way of never talking bad about someone. Even though you were younger you always made me feel safe and protected when you were around. It was comforting knowing that you were always a call away, I got so attached to you that I never imagined life without you. Your nephew that you named and was able to bond with asks about you often and we can only say that you are watching him from heaven. Its so funny he wont let anyone else cut his hair without begging or threatening him. Mommy Is doing okay but misses you terribly these 3yrs have been gone by so quickly and its like we are stuck in time and confused by it all. Bj is in college and refuses to let the things that make black men crack get in his way. I wont keep you long just wanted you to know that I love you And thought of you today.



Brown Girl Gumbo said...

What a beautiful letter to your brother. I am sorry for your loss.

It seems to be therapeutic to let your thoughts out by writing - thanks for sharing them with us.

Anonymous said...

I'm sure, your words, still warm his heart.

M.B. McClendon said...

Oh, what a beautiful letter. It's so tragic to have lost him at such an early age! He was so handsome. He was blessed to have you as his big sis. I know you'll always keep his memory alive.


Beautyful Habit said...

I love you Tamar, thanks for that letter! It is always great to hear how people feel about losing someone they love it prepares me and assures me that there are people around me that I can turn to who will know my pain if ever I have to experience such a thing!